I always believed that there was a God but I never really understood how to have a relationship with God and how to listen to Him. I would say my token prayer sometimes at the foot of my bed at night, but I didn’t understand how supremely powerful God was and is. Because I didn’t read His word in the Bible, I thought I had to be in control of everything in my life. But I found that I would worry about the decision that I had to make and about my future. If I got hurt by someone I would absorb that pain and it would add to the other pain that I felt in my heart. I started to find it hard to forgive people and that made me even more angry and frustrated and nothing seemed to fill the massive hole in my heart.
Finally I humbled myself and called out to God, asking Him, “Why am I here?” and “How do I change these frustrated feelings that I have in my head that seem to travel with me everywhere I go?” The next day I went to a church for the first time and gave my life to the Lord. I said sorry to God for choosing to live worrying about everything and not looking to Him, and I asked God to come into my heart and to be my Lord and Savior and I became born again.
I immediately wanted to read the Bible and pray and to be around other believers, it was as if a veil had been lifted from my eyes. I started to understand that God wanted to transform my life, and that was through reading His word the Bible, and by being in relationship with Him. Hebrews 4:12 says, ‘the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.’ You see, God sees through everything and everyone in the same way and His word is truth. I learnt that I was living my life according to my emotions and feelings which were constantly changing. By reading God’s word I started to understand that regardless of what I thought or what my emotions and feeling told me, I needed to put Gods word first, and not lean on my own understanding, but on what the word of God said.
I really started to hunger for God’s perspective on everything and I had no interest in being persuaded by popular culture or everyone else’s view…I just wanted to know what God thought. He is my creator and yours, so don’t you think he knows best about your life too. Don’t be someone that believes there is a God and thinks that that’s enough cause it doesn’t do you any good. You need to jump right in to Jesus’s arms so He can take away your pain and suffering and teach you through His word.
The awesome truth and promise from the Word of God, is that if your ‘born again’ you get to go to heaven when you die. This is because Jesus has paid the price for those who follow him, when he defeated death by dying on the cross and raising himself from the dead on the third day… so you belong to him. Do yourself an eternal favour and ask Jesus into your heart. He will transform your life here, and when you die you get to go to heaven to be with Him for eternity.